PGL in singapore was a wonderful experience. Had a lot of fun with the new group of musicians. We also did some shopping and swimming as and when we're free. We stayed at the oriental hotel for 8 nights. I think it's ranked 5-star. Will post up some pictures later. (Chai Chai, you'll get to see a picture of Ali Baba. But as usual, Ali Baba is a little bitchy and temperamental at times. I guess it's common for people like you to behave like him).

Next week I'll probably be going for an audition for a 3 months contract gig. Reason I say most probably is because I don't know a single person from the band. I haven't even met the person who hooked me up with it. I don't know a single song they sing. And I've agreed to "try" and sing backup. I hope I don't make myself too much of a joke. I hope during practise time, the band members will realise that I really can't sing.. and my playing can compensate that. Oh.. initially the guy asked me to sing lead for at least a song.. he later spared me of it. I didn't tell him the truth. The fact that I can't even sing backup, background, backside, whatsoever!

Apart from that, I have done a couple of small things that pay peanuts. Such are the things I have done for the first 6 months of my coming back. I have been back for a little more than half a year. 6 months and 3 days. I miss Boston...

Took me sometime.. still couldn't recall the brand "Thomas"! In the end I have to do a google search. Slightly toasted mini bagle with plain cream cheese, I want. Updates on myself... ever since the stretch of PGL shows, I haven't been doing much. I moved. Am now staying in Subang, USJ 1. So when you guys in US, come back, do come visit me. I'll be in Subang. And bring me a bag of Thomas Bagles. Went back to Segamat once every month. Rearranged an old tune I wrote during my freshman year at Berklee. And combining all demos to make them more presentable. Waiting for dear Miss J. to bring me to her friend's studio.

I missssssss;

Bangkok Madness, Shrimp Scampi, Pad See You, Moochi, Shrimp Ginza, Lemon Poppy Muffin, Mocha Frappucino, Bostom Creme, Clam Chowder, Chicken Pho, Zha Jiang Mian.Wrentham Outlet, CVS, Stop & Shop, Shaw's, Prudential, China Pearl Dim Sum, Shinos Express, Ginza, Charles River, Cambridgeside Galleria. Super 88. Red Sox Rox. Yankees Sucks.

My memories of Boston is slowly fading away. It took me sometime to recall some names above. But it's ok. It's all good. Coming back to Malaysia is good for me. Afterall, it's my tanah tumpah darahku. Chehhh....

      I am not sure if it's a bad day or just a bad period of time in my life again. 2 months of official bumming has finally taken its toll. I finally feel low and useless today. Real bad! Good news, I may be going home earlier than our initial planned date. Bad news, I stoop so low now that if I keep going down I may not be able to face the industry when it's finally time for me to. And it makes me reluctant to get out of my apartment even. Not to mention leaving the country.

Nothing is going to pick me up tomorrow, except maybe if I find a bass that I really like deal, or what is more likely, a Red Sox win.

And I wonder too, where my time went... To this:

http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=74DFBBC3FDD40A8A


Currently listening to;
OST Goong - 궁 (宮) O.S.T


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     Isn't it weird. Now that I have so much time in my hand and so many things to do, I found myself doing nothing for the past few days. The first and foremost thing that I want to do now is to put my vacation pictures up. And I am not doing it. Still not doing it. And there are tons of other things that are on my priority list. Where do I begin?

Lots of things I want to blog about. Good and bad. But I realise what you blog about really affect what others perceive of you. Just like how I perceive others through their blogs. Blogging can be a way for bloggers to give readers or friends a perception of themselves. That perception can be true or be want-to-be-made-to-believe because bloggers are well aware that anyone can have access to their blogs. Blog about sad things that happened to you, people sympathise with you. Blog about happy things, people think, oh what a great life you have. Blog about the good deeds you did can possibly help in your reputation. Blog about your friends, hanging out with lots of friends all the time, what a friendly person you are. Feel free to think that I am wrong. But I am also aware that there are people who blog their heart and soul out. But i wonder how many blogs are really like that.


I got diverted to this topic because when I started writing, I wanted to mention something in my blog. And suddenly I realised, is this something that I want everybody to know? Call me secretive or whatever. I do not want unknown people or even ordinary acquaintance who stumble across my blog to know so much about me. And reminds me of this person who bitched about his/her employer in his/her blog, got found out, and got booted from his company. Talking about "this is my blog, I can blog whatever I want"!

In any case, it's an undeniable fact that blog is an effective way for people to keep their friends updated about themselves, to a certain extent. As for the thing that I want to mention earlier, I still prefer to keep it to myself. If you want to know, you can ask me about it. And if I feel I am close enough to you, I will tell you. If not...you just have to wait till the day I am comfortable blogging about everything.

Ok. I should stop talking now. Next time you see me write, pics will be up. If not, then it's because I have some technical difficulties.

    My LA trip this time was needless to say... a blast. Sunny days followed us almost wherever went, with the exception of a short drizzle one night on the way going back to LA from San Diego. Our visit to the zoo was even more of a blast. Shall post some pictures up soon, if I find out how. haha!

Currently listening to:
"motor noise"
by a small HEPA filter.

     I have to starve today and only eat liquid food. In other words, I can't eat anything except drinks and clear soup! Oh, but I can have jell-o tho (hmmm). I have a medical procedure to go through tomorrow. And I better drink as much as I can now because from midnight onwards, I won't be allowed to even drink. All will be fine, I am sure. Can't wait for tomorrow. Gonna make up by eating something goooooddd...

Currently listening to:
"Whistle"
by My Steam Radiator

Like I have anticipated and prepared for, I didn't get my visa sponsored by Berklee. I will be going back to Malaysia earlier than I planned. No, I am not saddened by the fact. I think it's a blessing as it eases my decision on whether to go back now or later, and how much later?

My last few months here will be spent hopefully on improving myself on piano, covering the things that I have set out to learn four years ago but have not yet grasped. Official last day of work was last Wednesday. It was my second time, leaving the Learning Center. My dear friends at the LC gave me a surprise farewell party. I hate farewell parties actually. Especially when it's for me. Don't get me wrong, I was very touched by what they did. And I never thought I will deserve one myself for what I have done or have not done. I just hate leaving a place or friends I have grown to love so much.

A little more than a year ago, I left the Berklee and LC, feeling lost and aimless. With support from friends and someone's blessings, I went back and spent almost a year there. I didn't achieve too much during my one year there, but it's enough for what I set out to accomplish in the first place. And I made more friends, real close friends than I have before. It actually feels like I have a family here in Boston. Musicians is all about networking you see. haha! If making friends is an accomplishment or achievement, I feel like I have over-achievement right here.

I am sad to have to leave Boston. I really am. More sad to leave friends here than anything. I love many things about here. People are friendlier. Pedestrians are always bigger than cars (but not taxis). There is a return policy for almost everything. 1 pint of Haagen Daz just costs you less than 3 bucks. Choco won't melt in room temperature (especially Lindt choco). No lizards crawling on your ceiling, dropping bombs on you or your furniture around the house. Call home to Malaysia, and friends tell you how they envy you staying here, getting to experience snow (sureee...) and so on..

But I won't kid myself thinking that I belong here. I hate the unpredictable weather (not that the rain in Malaysia is so predictable either). I hate the cruel winter that can kill a person if they're out for too long. I hate being confined in my small shady apartment which for the rent I am paying, I acknowledged, is the best apartment I can get in Boston. I hate having to pay so much for tips and tax at restaurants when the tips alone in Malaysia can buy you a pleasant meal. I also hate how you get billed for unknown charges no matter how hard you try to avoid it, especially by cellphone carriers. On top of all the taxes and service charges (wonder what's the additional service we're paying for apart from the cellphone service) every month, cellphone carriers pounce at every opportunity to charge you a bomb when you overuse your minutes and sms limits. Not to mention the activation fees that is non refundable, restocking fee if you return them within 30 days and all the good free cellphone deals which only apply to new subsribers (yes, they are stoopid. they don't care if you switch to another carrier, they just won't give you the new-customer deal). I also don't like being referred to as alien in those immigration forms you are to fill when you want to apply for a lot of things.

But all in all, the only thing I can't stand being here is not having your family around and having to fly over 20 exhausting hours just to be home to visit my parents, relatives and friends. Not to mention the air ticket you have to pay for that. Life is just too short for me to live so far away from my family and only seeing them once in every couple of years. My parents love me too much for me to be able to leave them behind in Malaysia and not be there to make sure they are doing very well without me. A year I spend here will be a year less I have to spend with my family back home. In this world, so unpredictable, with war, catastrophies and so on, how many years are you sure you will have ahead of you?

So June is the month I will be home. I have to be home by the 18th for my cousin's wedding. Very excited about it. And also, it will be my first time bringing someone else home with me. *grin*

To my friends here in Boston, those of you who will be going home to Malaysia, I look forward to reuniting this family here with you guys in Malaysia. And to those who will be staying here permanently or elsewhere in the world, we would be able to meet again in the near future if we make the effort to! Make a field trip to Malaysia and I can provide full accomodation in Segamat, and in KL when I found myself a place then. Yet another chapter in my life has ended but the memories and friendship that I made here will prevail forever.

Pearly can be contacted via email : pearlyng@yahoo.com and through MSN at pearlypearlpearl@hotmail.com